I've
finally made up my mind that I'm going to attend a baptism class. No one had
coerced me into doing it, but the events that happened to me over the past 5
years, and particularly in recent months assured me that I'm ready to take the
challenge of being a Christian.
My
mom is a Methodist, while my late dad was a Buddhist, both devout in their
religion. When I was a kid, mom took me to Sunday school at a Wesley Methodist
Church in Malacca, a historical city in Malaysia. Somehow, along the way, I
didn't feel the need to go as I disliked being forced to wake up every Sunday
to go to church, and I didn't know God enough to want to go. Eventually, when I
went into secondary school, I joined the Buddhist society, and found that it
suited me well as Buddhism does not believe in a Creator. Don't get me wrong;
it's a beautiful religion which I followed for nearly three decades. I thought
that finally I've found something that gave my heart peace until something
happened in 2005. My three-year marriage broke to pieces.
I
was lost. I had nothing to hang on to. No one to talk to besides my parents.
Then I remembered that there was indeed someone who could save me - God. I told
mom one day: "Mom, I'm following you back to church."
After
a 30-year absence, I was welcomed "home" in the same way by the same
people except that they have aged a lot. I started going to church regularly
with or without my mother. Yet I wanted to be sure that I'm truly ready to
accept Christianity. That assurance came when I lost my job about two month
ago. I prayed hard one night, confessing my sins to the Lord and asking him to
help me get a job. The very next morning, I got a call from a premier private
school in Malacca who offered me a teaching job that I had applied for earlier.
It was truly God's work, and I told my Christian aunts that God has been
listening and has answered my prayers! He is real!!! I have prayed a lot from the time I decided
to return to church, but THIS was special,
God
has helped me when He knew I was in trouble. God will answer prayers in His own
time. So is there a God? Yes there
certainly is, and I'm ready to be a Christian. There's no turning back this time.
“You will
seek me and find me, when you seek me with all your heart.” –
Jeremiah 13:29 (NIV)
